Don't worry too much about that subject title...it's lyrics from a Katy Perry song that I like. Still, it applies to me, at least to my spiritual life that I've let go by the wayside. I picked up the Haitian Vodou Handbook that I've had in my possession forever and just picked a page and started reading it. Well, it opened up to the section on Papa Legba. Anyway, then I started reading about Damballah and Ayida Wedo ... and I realized something. Growing up Muslim, all the little rituals and prayers and meditation things I've learned. I never noticed how all that was like training almost...for the path I have now. I mean, my whole excuse for not practicing my faith is that...I can't. I live in a very Christian house blah blah blah. Well, if the slaves could somehow keep the traditions and faiths that they practiced from Africa alive under the brutal conditions they lived in...what's really stopping me from diving (no pun intended...Damballah's realm is underwater) into this?
Just some thoughts I had yesterday that I thought I would share. I've been feeling for months like I should take out the tarot cards I bought and use them and start reading again...but I've ignored that feeling every time. Well, the tarot cards are being kept in a box...and I recently had to clean my room (and got rid of a ton of stuff I had in my room that were remnants from living with Joe) and the box has made it to my nightstand next to my bed...so one of these days, I'll get to it. Really. Oy.
Oh yes. C.J. bought me a brand new mattress. The mattress I had been sleeping on has given me all sorts of back and neck pain and I've been waking up exhausted everyday from tossing and turning all night. It is amazing how much of my pain and exhaustion that I attributed to depression was because of that damn mattress. And it is amazing how just 2 nights of sleeping on the new mattress...and I feel like a new person.
Also, C.J.'s parents are hoping to get this new cleaning business off the ground (it would be something they'd do in conjunction with their painting business) and there's a position open for $12.50 per hour for someone to come in and clean. Well, C.J. said, if they manage to get this bid to clean government housing, the position would be mine if I wanted it. I really hope they do....because wow...that would help so much.
I also got to organize all my fabrics and stuff. When I am done making things with the stuff I have now, I'm probably going to buy very little new fabric. I'll probably work on repurposing stuff rather than just buying new fabric. It just gets so expensive! Of course, to complete the projects I have listed now, I have to go to Jo-ann's next week (they have a sale) and buy some more stuff, but then that's it!
At least until I get some stuff sold anyway and start establishing my name and stuff like that. I am still planning to get some labels and business cards made too. Craze, I have not forgotten your wallet, I just have to run to the store to get some stuff for it. :) And even if you don't want it...I'm giving it to you anyway.
The only new fabric I would buy would be in the form of fat quarters anyway and that would probably push me to do more patchwork...which I
love doing anyway.
Oh and tonight...I've got a date with C.J. ... at 11 p.m. to go see Transformers 2! He's a Transformers junkie and just started college (working on getting his associates in 1 1/2 years!) so 11 p.m. dates will probably be the norm now lol
I should stop typing and go so I can get dinner and maybe a nap in! I also have to activate my cell phone again...because Glenn spends so much damn time on the computer and the phone line is always tied up! It's like, if I ask him if I could use the phone, he lets me, but then he just goes back on it...so no one can get through back to
me. It's fucking annoying! Of course, he won't get broadband or wireless or whatever...because he's a cheapskate and I really think he just likes it that I have to ask him every time I want to use the phone! Gah! So, rather than throw some huge bitch fit, I'm just going to activate my phone and use that.
Honestly.Oh and when Aria gets her ears pierced in the next year or two, she wants some earrings from
Phoenix Fire Designs! Actually, she wants earrings, a bracelet, a necklace, and a faerie hutch too! Maybe I shouldn't have shown her that site...
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